Intermezzo

It’s been two years away from my last post and I think this what I need from a long hiatus, a start from the scratch again. During my long hiatus, I’ve experienced so many indescribable things in my life which I never expect. Bitter and sweet they were; and I feel they have changed me a lot. Fell in love with someone you shouldn’t, seeing friends leaving your side, seeing them changed, also me making mistakes and other things; those things were too big too handle. And I feel now is the right time to write again, to be relieved, to lift up my burdens and to start a new life. I know there are many things cannot be solved in a night and it is better for time to let it done, that’s why I guess this is the reason of my new writing. I want to get healed and feel more secure because I could not tell how much pain the past gave me. To write means to be heard, to let your feelings be spoken through papers or even through blog like this. To write is a way for a person to express his/her feelings and thoughts and by writing you will get a satisfaction and pleasure. It is true that a pen is mightier than a sword. Writings can change someone’s life and even the world; believe it or not, it is true.

 

An Unexpected Night

This evening i felt so upset, angry, unpleasant and disappoint with what i had. Well, this evening i got a gamelan practice and it’ll be performed in this Saturday. We have collaboration with a guy who’ll played a kendhang in some parts. The reason why I got upset was because the man who’ll collaborate with willshow up and join us as usual, but he didn’t. I don’t know why, but suddenly I feel like mad and sad because he didn’t come. I was hoping he’ll come  but no he didn’t. My mood was terribly bad and I can’t describe it. I can’t breathe and I wanna cry. I don’t what that means but I think I’ll happy if only he showed up this evening.

Queen Bee

Order is your middle name
Your head is always held high
Never looks so average but high end
The sight of your eyes is never been so friendly

Walk straight and chill
sometime you are like a five years old lassie,
or sometimes you can be a control freak.
Your words never been so sweet, as your mouth opens only for phonies
to pursue your ambition.

You are lying when you said “I’m hurt” in tears
while your lips are wry and your gaze is full of resentment
Your number one mission is everything should be centered on you
For you the world is only under your feet.

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